The Friday ,
the week before last I had chat with someone on fb , it happened that it was a
total hoax - the person didn't exist. No worries though I learned to be careful, but agreed with The Person to
take on a diet . And guess what I am doing it , although I still binge and
purge. Like today total waste of food and money as everything what went in,
come out this same way. Just because I binge I feel this burning feeling in my throat,
it's uncomfortable and my stomach hurts, and I feel so full and just yuck. But
back to the topic , so I have lost weight, as on Friday the 10th of august I
weighed 115kg I dropped down to 110kg. I am amazed and cannot fully believe it.
I am more determined now the only issue is that I binge. Tomorrow I will take
money for a water to work and that's it, I will try to have a breakfast which
will be shredded wheat 200calories and this should keep me going, than water
through the day and some energy drinks - 150 Cal, when I finish work I might
have a salad which will be 300 calls -because of a mayo and croutons, this
salad makes me feel really full. I hope it will work for me .
I am in the place
that I am afraid that this can transform to anorexia I don't want to be
anorexic, no offence to anyone, I don't want to be this bony as the girl
on the picture.
Although I want to
look like this girl, very pretty and thin as I want to be, I just hope I can
keep it up . I need a motivated and tips how to cheat my cravings and hunger, I
honestly hate to exercise but I have somehow physical work replenishing rollers
with drinks. I do housework so I actually burn some calories. I need to lose at
least 50kg, that is a long way ahead of me . If anyone wants to contribute to
my goal please comment with any possible tips for not eating, not craving and
cheating all the hunger feelings as much as possible. I will appreciate all
comments and tips on that subject. I have to lose weight and it has to be as
quick as possible.
On the other hand this is still ED so nevermind if I suffer of anorexia or bulimia , right? I just want to be slim, it is consuming my mind now.
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