I am anxious and unable to think why, I just had a nap , at 9am!! daaaa, it's a bit weird. 5 minutes ago I realised that my chest hurts, I thought yes panic attack. Now I have difficulty breathing and caugh, my chest still hurts but not as much, I try not to think aboj tnit , but really how can you not?
I feel like not going to work today, just because I don't feel like going. On the other hand I feel energised and ready to roll, this panic attack annoys me. I hate when it happens, I feel exhausted, my stomach and my head hurts, I can not breath I feel hot and I want it to stop.
My god I feel so angry because of the attack and I don't feel like going to work. I am not tirednbut I would rather spend a day in bed .
I had a dream while having my nap, I dreamed about my husband brother who really doesn't talk to us nither the family in general. well it's a long story but there is a lot to do with his wife, she had a power over him, now he saying that he doesn't have the money or the timento visit, well thats what he want letnit be.
I feel tired in some way, and I don't want to do anything. My pannic attackmjust passed, it lasted 20 min. I should really see a doctor about it as it makes me so angry. Well but i dont trust those stupid doctors.
I feel like not going to work today, just because I don't feel like going. On the other hand I feel energised and ready to roll, this panic attack annoys me. I hate when it happens, I feel exhausted, my stomach and my head hurts, I can not breath I feel hot and I want it to stop.
My god I feel so angry because of the attack and I don't feel like going to work. I am not tirednbut I would rather spend a day in bed .
I had a dream while having my nap, I dreamed about my husband brother who really doesn't talk to us nither the family in general. well it's a long story but there is a lot to do with his wife, she had a power over him, now he saying that he doesn't have the money or the timento visit, well thats what he want letnit be.
I feel tired in some way, and I don't want to do anything. My pannic attackmjust passed, it lasted 20 min. I should really see a doctor about it as it makes me so angry. Well but i dont trust those stupid doctors.
By the way it is very unusual as for me to wake up early ( 6am) and start baking danish pastries!
Yes that was so weird, I realise it after the fact when I started toprepare the dough and the ingridience which I needed for baking them. The most bizzare thing is I don't really like to cook , don't tell me about baking , I am really bad when it comes to that , so as you can see that was odd then my normal morning. I made a custard to go with danish and peaches in sirup. They are really tasety, mmmm.
I think that I need to start diet again , as I feel so heavy , and that I make myself sick doesn't help. Right , I feel massive, then add me being bloated- or feeling it, than stomak cramps, and wind. So it is time to stop the binge and work very hard on stopping high food intake and start eating small portions often. Let see how it goes, I am positive, I really need it. I need to loose half of the weight I am now , and believe me I am massive 16.5 stone!!!! Aaaaaa, I didn't realise how bad it sounds until I had seein written in here. WOW :( SO BAD, SO VERY BAD!
Well I am going to work today, then through the weekend and monday and tuesday. I really doesn't want to go, ooooowwwww, I pity myself.
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