My work - transfer

 

I finally feel very happy at work, this is the place I was looking for, I think. I'm excited to be there and colleagues and management are people with heart and brain - where in my previous job colleagues and management was lacking that skills, abilities and being a person. That's why I hated it I was constantly depressed and so unhappy. I wanted to leave work asap, and didn't even bother to be there on time or to be there at all. I found so many different excuses, just not to go to work. I got physically sick and I self harm more often, even being at work , I cut to release this pain inside me which was so overwhelming and took over me for hours. I felt such a relief going home, but I felt so tired as well, that after coming home I didn't have an energy to do anything else.

 I am now in a happy place where people, at least now treating me like another person who actually have the feelings. I get "thank you" for even the smallest thing done or even sometimes for doing my job. This is great and I feel overwhelmed with happiness, I am very hyper at work, even when at home I feel a bit tired. I'm constantly doing something and I can not do nothing. I will do other jobs unrelated to my job description just because I want to do them and because I am happy doing them.



The other thing is that I am scared, I am afraid that this could end and I won't be able to cope with that. I am afraid that people start to treat me badly, and that this trust will be broken, that they will start to take advantage of me and that I will be feeling the same way as before. I don't want to think about it a lot, because I feel happy and I trust that nothing bad will happened, but on the other side if it does. What will I do ? How I will react? Will I be able to get another job? Will I trust people? So many questions, and I don't really know what to do or think, for the moment I may concentrate on being happy as I haven't felt that way for a long time.



People at work are kind and respectful, they have their up's and down's but I feel included in their work life. They are not gossiping as much as in my other job, a lot of people are quiet, but if you ask them personal questions they feel comfortable enough to answer you fully, and I feel the answer is honest. They will offer help before you ask them, which is so rare. There are people who don't want to do much, they are a bit lazy and need encouragement and a bit of a push, but they will do whatever we ask them to do, without questioning. So that's alright, isn't it?

How many people are really happy in their work, I feel lucky to find myself in such a pleasant environment .

I just love it, at least for now, and it has been 4 weeks that I'm there now.



Glad to be transferred. At my job I have passion, happiness, distraction from my daily needs to hurt myself, respect, apriciation. Love it :)