I feel empowered as not many of us is able to work, I
am the lucky one, I have to work . For me the job is like a medication takes my
mind out of things. That's why I am still here, I am surviving and I am capable
of doing things for myself. I work to kill the time as sometimes I feel like
time is my enemy, If I have to much time I will plan the murder, I will harm
myself, I will abuse myself, I will get angry and be tired of life. So working
is keeping me sane and I manage to work well under pressure.
I am pretty hyper
at work just because I love to do so many things at this same time , I am
unable to be bored, if I am, I am tired, I feel like there is no point of me
being at work. Then I will feel sick and I want to go home, that is basically
how I am.
I meant to be
strong and I am trying to be, but life is cruel and is hurting me , I try to
defend as much as I can, how long yet I will manage to be strong?
Feeling tired and
anxious and sad somehow I feel like there is no energy in me anymore. The weird
thing is when I am going to work I get the energy supply , and I really work
hard.
I was somehow able
to delete myself from my followers , yey me ! I am proud of myself.
