I feel anxious and unsettled. I feel overloaded and completly miserable at times. I am tired and my mind doesn't work clearly , I can't think clearly. I have those milions of racing thoughts I am all confused and disturbed at times. I am feeling angry , every single thing is annoying no mater how big or small. I just feel hopeless and fed up with all the crap around me. I spend around 3000 pounds within last month justto feed the need of buying. I throw a lot of food, because it get expired. I buy too much as for our small family. I had spend 225 pounds on a handbag, really nice and green. Positive colour , right. The pity is the price of it. The money I haven't got. It is just bloody crazy, what the hell , why this is happening to me?! Over spending , binge , not eating, anger, confusion, sadness, mental pain, tiredness, unable to sleep. I think I am overworked - job, college, family commitment, volunteering, and now there is no time for the gym although I am singned up. I might be able to go tomorrow, let see. I just wish the confusion would go away and my mind will be very clear, that is what I want now.
I feel that I can not concentrate at all my thougts change so much. I am having a difficulty to do anything, even shopping as I am forgetting what I have to buy. If I dont do the thing I am thinking of, immidiately, I would forget it, and I try to remind myself what was that I wanted to do and I simply can't. Like I am planning to buy certian groceries and when I am in the store I would buy so many items which are not needed, and forget the one I really want.
I feel just tired.
xoxo
