I hate my husband so much he is such a pain. He is constantly busy with his own tasks not helping me at all , when I ask him to do something he does hesitate to do it. Until the point when I can not handle it and I would shout at him or simply hit him hard , whenever. I don't think about it until it's done . Today for example I asked him to take rubbish out and he told me he doesn't have his shoes on nither empty hands. But he actually could take the bin bag to throw it away. I got very upset I told him how useless he is and took rubbish out myself. I really do everything by myself. I hit him in the shoulder really hard as well that the punch cause his hand to feel funny. Never mind I don't care. I am so angry with him now that nothig could possibly change it.
I am so angry because he is freeking lazy, I do undorstand the times when you are out of power and you are phisically unable to do anything , just lay in bed and sllep. But he can not be like that always , can he?!
I thiought he would be more of help when he will go part time, as he took a part time job with NHS. He finishes his job at 12 midday, is back home around 13.30 and does nothing. I work full time and on top of that I have my fucking depression and whatever disorder I have , ten doc appointments, son nursery now it will be school , our family pet , cleaning , cooking and everything else .Grrrrryyy I am so bloody angry just want to scream and tear my hair off my head. I am calm outside because I have my parents at home , probably if they werent here that will be a home war, between me and him.
What I want is just a fucking help, with the housework , not only laying down with his phone nither playing on xbox constantly. This doesn't benefit us as a family, he is so stupid I think at times that I want a divorce as I know I would only blame myself if something would be wrong as I will be on my own. Right?!
Just feeling fed up and angry.
