Yesterday's session

So I have seen my psychotherapist yesterday, and that was the thing which made me not to go to work today. Why? I will explain everything now.
I went for yesterday's session and we spoke about one of my colleagues who is actually on this same position as me, but this person is really mean and unprofessional , she always have to have everything her way. Like she made me feel worst than her, but am I really. She is a foreigner as me , and she thinks that this is her store and her department even though it's not. She makes people feel bad about themselves and thinks that this is ok. I just can not stand the confrontation with her. What I mean is that she makes me feel uncomfortable and somehow guilty, I don't understand that . I wish I could. She manifests her power , always , when I am there showing like she is my boss. I sincerely hate her, like no other person in my workplace. So basically yesterday we spoke about her and my mother, A. asked me what is that about K there , that makes me uncomfortable and that I can not confront her. I didn't know until we spoke about my mother that she is an ignorant, arrogant , hypocritical and basically rude as K is. Then as we talked about my mother I said " if its not her way it's no way" it's this same as I say about K , she makes me act the way I would with my mother. Although she is not my mother, she is some strange person who picks on me without a reason, so I will have to learn how to confront her. This will be very hard to do though , as she makes me feel like there is no point of talking to her as she doesn't listen , so does my mother. I am unsure if that is the reason but I am about to find out , and hopefully it will be sooner than later.
I didn't went to work today as I feel so low in mood , I wouldn't be able to work with K today , I think. And for most of my shift she would be there , I feel like I can not see her at all today. I feel down and kind of numb, I cried already and harm myself again which I haven't done for quiet some time. I looked at myself in the mirror and was verbally abusive towards myself - why? I don't understand my behaviour but I think that A is helping me a lot to understand what my life is about , and why do I act in such strange ways at times . Although after yesterday's session I'm feeling so low, and in so much mental pain that I can not even describe.  We talked about my father as well as I mentioned that my store manager makes me feel comfortable and assured , when he is there there are no problems. I feel confident around him, and I am always there if he needs help. When I feel like he is upset or angry about something I will avoid him, but I haven't got the hurt feelings, the next day is always better. Now he is on holidays and I know deep down that I would go to work today if he would be there. But he isn't. As A said I am a professional person and like to be clever, she made me think why I really dislike word" stupid" as always when is mentioned I got upset or loose my confidence. I want to bee seen as smart, clever and professional , and I am very proud of my achievements. Which is a truth , I am proud and I like to be clever. I am very protective over D , my son and I really want him to know that I love him the most in the whole world. And that he is my motor, and the person who still keeps me together. I wish as well that I could speak to my husband like before about everything, as now we really talk about stuff. Before we couldn't stay quiet, where now even though we both are home we don't talk to each other. This makes me feel bad, as sometimes he wants to talk and I am just dismissing him for no reason or I am not interested in the subject. But now I feel like I owe him just because we are not talking , we could loose each other. And that is the reality.

Making a conclusion , I hate my mother , K remained me  of her although she isn't my mother and I have to learn to realise that. As she will take an advantage of me constantly which isn't good, and makes me unhappy .