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Creation in my mind

The sadness of every day

The pain I feel inside 

The rage and bruised hands

Those cuts on legs are nothing 

Compare to hurting soul

The thouts race through my head

Will they stop at all?

I cry my heart out but there are no tears

It's anger which consuming me

The bloody mind is playing me 

The dream so weird and sad 

Those people in my dream 

Their pain is mine

Leave me alone and don't go away

I don't want you near me 

But I want you to be here

I'm like two magnets with opposite poles

It troubles me so much and it doesn't at all

I'm happy 

I'm putting my mask on and play the role 

The life story

The real me, inside, hidden and scared 

Who has outbursts of anger, and anxiety so deep

With troubled mind and the blade in my hand 

I write the story about my life.

Is that me ?

Those are like two different people

But I am only one

with my two different lives