they think they know

What do they know?! People around me don't have an idea what is going on in my head and they think they are able to help. I hate that, if by any chance I share my feelings with someone I don't want pity, but assurance that they will listen and won't judge and won't say that " I understand" because they don't ! I would love to meet someone on my way who won't feel like they are the smartest, and they won't say "o come on take it easy, relax, don't worry" I think that really makes me upset. On the other hand I believe that they have my best in heart, but my mind is saying different things. I feel lost and .... so alone, and empty, because of those feelings. When people ask me how I am I will put my mask on and say I'm fine, but inside I scream from pain. How can you say to others what do you feel if you know they wouldn't be able to understand, It's better not to talk about it. It's just so hard to live with that, all those fears and emotions. Feeling like you are so insane and everyone actually knows that. I try my best to trust others, but what I have found out is that everyone will disappoint me every single time. It is so irritating and frustrating and so indescribable, like I want to scream in their face how fake they are and so plastic. I can not believe that people think they know everything, and that they are able to change your thoughts or tell you just forget it, chill out, get over it. I got angry because if I could do that I wouldn't be in that bad place I am currently, and if I could chill out I would do that, but I can't and that's my problem.