I was feeling really sad and anxious today, we went to London, it was alright. The city is always busy and it makes me quite angry when I have to go there. We quickly dealt with things today, had lunch at McDonalds and come back home. My hubby mentioned that I haven’t talked much recently, indeed I want to say something but I just feel bloody powerless. Like I try to make an effort to talk and there is nothing coming out of my mouth. I have gone shopping, I wanted to buy a dress for a wedding in May. I went to one of the stores and there was no dresses in my size at all. So angry at myself I was going to buy some groceries and went to BHS and found a dress! Really pretty dress in dusty pink. It’s ideal it slim me visually, which is great. This made me feel positive today, but people are making me so angry, I feel like pulling my hair out and scream. I feel tired and unhappy, I think sometimes that I don’t live it’s like I’m in a fishbowl – isolated from outside life. People on the streets makes me agitated and frustrated, they rush, the children are not well behaved, parents not taking a responsibilities for their children. Just so frustrating.